Friday, April 26, 2013

the things that say a lot about people....

things that say a lot about people:
the way in which they treat the waiter/waitress
how they feel about the weather
whether they dog ear pages or highlight in books
fingernails and hands in general
their preferred creative outlet
how much they dread/enjoy talking on the phone
whether or not they drink coffee
if they ever forget to eat
how honest they are with themselves (and others)
if they correct your grammar
and whether or not they get nervous before haircuts

So I know that everyone was doing this like 2 months ago. But I really didn't want to do it when everyone else was.. just a thing I have... But I'm doing it know. So brace yourselves. Haha. 

The way in which they treat the waiter/waitress
I'm pretty much always nice to the people who are carrying my food. I'm just polite. And I'm not just saying that because it makes me look good. I can't remember being rude or mean to one. And I can't remember having a rude waiter or waitress. And I've been served by a waitress who was named Victoria too. She was darling. 

How they feel about the weather
I normally don't mind the weather do much. Till it's been raining for days in a row or really hot or cold or a lot of snow for a LONG time. But normally I love snow, the warmness and a good rain.. makes for great photos. 

Whether they dog ear pages or highlight in books. 
I don't do either of these things. I think my mom told me not to dog ear pages in library books when I was little maybe...and I only really write in my Bible...which I had FOREVER. So it's covered in underlining and little notes. And filled with pictures, drawing, and bookmarks. But I don't use a highlighter. I use a pen and sometimes a pencil. 

Fingernails and hands in general 
I bite my fingernails, I mean it's bad... I don't do it cuz of nerves, I just bite them.. and my hands? Well, I like rings and painting my nails. I like hands, and I think holding hands is the sweetest thing.. And last week I was so nervous for my piano playing I was crushing my BFF's hand after. 

Their preferred creative outlet 
Writing songs. I've wrote poems and songs since I was little. Music has always inspired. And I love photography too, something about capturing all this beauty..and seeing the world in new ways, it blows my way. I play the piano and a big of the guitar. I love how the music sounds when I try hard and put myself in it. Singing is big one too, I like that since I was little too. And just listening to songs in general. 
I'm a bit of a designer too, I like to move my bed, desk, and dresser around all the time. And I dressing up and finding new ways to create an outfit.. 

How much they dread/enjoy talking on the phone
I will never understand why people hate this. I've answered the phone since I was like 10 so I'm used to it. I talk to my grandma all the time, chatting up life and joking around. I call my dad and mom when they're not home. I tell people that they have the wrong number and no, a Bob doesn't live here. But I can see why if you're not used to it, it could be uncomfortable. I just have done it for years. And I enjoy it.

Whether or not they drink coffee 
I'm not a coffee person. I've tried it ever since I was little, tasted my grandma's coffee a million times. And she's always joking with me about it. Saying, "oops, I forgot to make you a cup darling." And I say, "well, that's too bad, I was looking forward to it." Then she smiles at me. 
Now, I do like things with coffee in it. Just that little taste of it, is amazing to me. I love Frappes. Sooo much.. 

If they ever forget to eat
Never. I have hypoglycemia (just google it) and a thyroid problem. So it's really important I eat and keep my energy up. But I don't always want to eat when my body wants too. Or I want to eat and I really need to but my body starts rejecting food.. that's if I wait a long time to eat. So yeah, I have to eat.. or I'll pass out, though that's never happened. 
Basically, I get lazy and don't eat when I should. My bad... 

How honest they are with themselves (and others) 
Not my best quantity. But it's something God has really helped me with. I hold back a lot, when I should just be open. So yeah, I try to see all my faults and not to hide the real Victoria. Because I know I'm loved. 

If they correct your grammar 
I correct my family all the time. But if I don't know you that well, I probably won't. And my friends are always correcting me. There are just some words that I've never been able to say correctly.. 

And whether or not they get nervous before haircuts
Oh, you mean having a heart attack? Yes, I do. But I won't be getting one in a LONG time. Last December I had 10 inches or so chopped off. I hadn't had my hair that short in about 10 years... 
But I get excited too, so it's all good. :) 

Well that's it! Now that you know than you ever wanted too about me.... I'll say goodbye.




Friday, April 19, 2013

my glass walls are crumbling \\ An Inside My Head Post

So you thought you had to keep this up
All the work that you do
So we think that you're good
And you can't believe it's not enough
All the walls you built up
Are just glass on the outside 

Walls are a big subject for me. Because I build them up. A lot of them, thinking maybe if I get them tall enough, I'll never be hurt again. Wrong. My walls always just end up hurting me. 
It's probably my worst habit. Pushing people out. I do it because I hate being disappointed and I hate it more when I disappoint people. 
And if I let others inside then they'd see all of me. All my scars, all the things that make me who I am, and all the things that I think define me. They'd know that I'm a good actress. That the truth is never easy for me. But they'd also see that I want the truth. Because it's what sets me free. 
I know people use that quote all the time, not even knowing how true it is. 
Haha, how true a quote about the truth is... okay, back to the point. 

So let 'em fall down
There's freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We're here now 

Letting my walls fall is something that God has really been teaching me. He's telling me to forget everything, everyone that hurt me, and let the healing begin. Let people inside and to love them with all my heart. But also to guard my heart and mind from evil. But not from good. 
He's teaching me to let my walls crack and crumble. And to know that with Him I'll never be alone, cuz He's my very best friend. The one that understands why I build walls, sometimes can't trust people, hide the real me, and am afraid. He gets it and loves me for me. And loves me enough to mold me to be like Him. To pour His light into my heart.

 This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark

So to all my fellow wall builders, we don't have to be this way. Yes, sometimes you will be hurt and disappointed and maybe crushed. And sometimes you'll be the one hurting others and disappointing others. But pain isn't something to fear. Cuz without it you'd never learn how to fly. And I know you want to fly. You want to free and happy. Living in a peaceful, beautiful world. 
And you can have that. I found my happy place, right inside God's hand. The eye in my psycho hurricane. And if I just sit there, I find that my walls have nothing on His loving protection. 
So stop trying to be perfect, look like you have it together, just try your best and lean on God. 
Cuz, He's the only one who can set you free.
And I'm thinking to make this "inside my head post" a series maybe. Just for encouragement and sharing how God is changing my life.

Sparks will fly as grace collides
With the dark inside of us
So please don't fight
This coming light
Let this blood come cover us
His blood can cover us

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark 

-TenthAvenueNorth's Healing Begins 

Friday, April 12, 2013

Sunset Beauties \\ Leah & Rachel

This is my best friend Leah and her little sister Rachel.
Or as I call them. Mylee and Ray. 
For Leah is mine and Rachel is a ray of smiles and bubbles. 
They are the sweetest girls and make my life so sweet and fun. I spend the night last week at their house. Leah and I went on a photo shoot after dinner.. she's just beautiful isn't she? 
With her blue eyes and long wavy hair.. yes, my bestie is gorgeous. 
During our little shoot I spotted Ray and called her over. I mean who couldn't love her? Big blue eyes ( just like her sis) and light sunshiny hair. 
 We went all around their yard and down the ally behind their house. The sunset was stunning and I love how it lights Mylee and Ray up. Not that they need it.
Loves, Vicky


Sunny Ray.. <3

Oh you know.. just Leah and me! :) Note- I'm the crazy girl on the left.

Thank you to my Ems for taking these of us!

 Yes, we're still 5, thank you.

My beautiful girl. <3