Saturday, September 29, 2012

These Are The Things That Make Us Feel Alive: Family Camp- September 2012

Through the window
I see you waiting
You are smiling
Cause I'm coming
Your eyes are a story
An ocean of memories
Pictures of faces and places
And all of the things
That make us feel like we have it all

All of the times

That make us realize
We have it all
We have it all

Life is beautiful

Life is beautiful

Living and dying

Laughing or crying
If we have the whole world or have nothing
I know there are long nights
But we'll make it
With every sunrise comes a new light
And all of the things
That make us feel like we have it all

All of the times

That make us realize
We have it all
We have it all

Life is beautiful

Life is beautiful
Life is beautiful

"Life Is Beautiful" By The Afters

Every year, I go the same place. Same time in September. And for most of those years it was pretty much the same. But these past couple of years it has changed. But this year it was like a new time.
Family Camp is a happy place. A fun place. With a creek, waterfall, trails, volleyball courts, tennis courts, huge field, firetower, and a basketball court. You get the point. There's a ton to do.
But this year was like a new adventure. New people came, well not new, but people I hadn't see in forever. :) Loves them. I got to see my beautiful friends Haley, Rachel, and Sara. I hung out with my friends I've know forever. I got a ton of photos.
That song by The Afters reminds me of how good I have it. And how so many things much me feel alive. Watching my little brothers climb trees. Listening to my dad sing. Hugging my cousins. Laughing with my besties. Meeting new people, going places. God's love and creation.
And looking back at camp I realized I have it all. We have it all.
Being with everyone at camp, all those that I love showed me that this is God meant when He said He'd never leave or forsake me. This is what He meant when He commanded us to live. This is why He died. So we could live.
I don't want to spend my whole life wondering what I could've done. Wondering if there was more, but being too afraid to go get it.
If you want something in life, go get it. If God's calling you to something, go get it. Go run your race, cause if you're a Christian, you have nothing to lose. You already have it all.



Tuesday, September 18, 2012

:Silent Dreamer:

1. I close my eyes. And slip away. Close my mind to today. Flash forward to tomorrow. Escape from the chaos. 

*Silent dreamer. Not a sound. Silently I dream about. All I want to put into words. But for now. I'm am silently dreaming. 

2. I open up, to what you say. That I need to live for today. Tomorrow will come soon enough. But I'm not yet for all that new stuff. For now I have to be content with silently.

*Silent dreamer. Not a sound. Silently I rebound. From all I want so bad. Refocus on what's important.

--One day you will pull me through. One day you will pull me through. One day you will pull me through.
And one day I will be tall. One day I will stand tall. One day, one day. One day. 
But not today. Maybe not tomorrow. Not this minute, not this hour. Not today. But I will pray. For strength to live for today. 

Silent dreamer. Not sound. Silently I dream about. All I want to put into words. But for now. I am silently dreaming. Silently dreaming. 

I close my eyes. And slip away. You pull me back. To today. 


Thursday, September 13, 2012

Redeemed: All the Same

A thousand voices A thousand lives A thousand prayers rise in the night   
What is it we seek? So many stories Lord, I hear.  
And all these questions in my ear. Can we come out clean?   
Different faces, Different fears, Different failures lead us here Show us how  

We're all the same Desperate for a change We're all the same  
We need your love We need your love

We take our secrets To the grave. Spend our lives out in the shame.  
Afraid to show our needs. But as we run our hands Along these scars.   
May they tell us who we are. We are the redeemed

Lyrics from "All The Same" By Tenth Avenue North

Redeemed. Loved. Saved. So many ways to describe a Christian. These lyrics have really been on my heart. And they're so true. We all do have different fears and struggles. But we're all desperate for love, for God. And how many of us have secrets. I know I do. And I know you do. But we can't live in our secrets, we can't hide in our shame. So many times I've looked at my scars and my failures, and I've thought "I'm so unclean." And it's true. I'm filthy. Dirty. Wrenched. But that's not what defines me. 
Because of it did, then I wouldn't make it to Heaven. None of us would. 

God defines me. Without Him, I would be nothing. Empty. I'd be the dust blowing in the wind. Never knowing love or joy. And it's that true of all of us. I think so many times, we get too caught up in what people shouldn't do, or what they're doing wrong. We do this all the same. When we're so stuck up to look at our own lives and see the darkness there. We're all the same. All true Christians are the same. 
I may believe something a bit different from you but it that a reason to block you out? No. 

God says that there's none righteous, no not one. No one's perfect, or just right, or have it all together. But I treat people like they the mess-ups and I'm the know it all. When did I forget where I came from? Because I'm just as much a sinner to this day as the most random man on the street is. And I'm just as much filthy as the kindest person in the world. 

God has really been showing me this lately. Showing me to treat others as I want to be treated. And remember that God is the one that people have to answer too, not me. I'm not the judge, I'm not God. 
So I can not act like I am. 

All the same. All so needy for love. And we have it. Don't we? Come on christian, why are you so down? Why do you think that life served you the wrong hand. Or that you got cheated out? God's a god a love. He loves you. And yet when I complain I don't think about that. I get so caught up in my own little world that I'm blind to the lost. 
I have nothing to complain about. Sure life may get hard. I may fall down. But I have a loving Father. And there's so many people in this world that don't. 

 What if there's a bigger picture
what if I'm missing out
What if there's a greater purpose
I could be living right now
outside my own little world
Start breaking my heart for what breaks Yours
give me open hands and open doors
put Your light in my eyes and let me see
that my own little world is not about me

Lyrics From "My Own Little World" By Matthew West

We are the redeemed. We have a wonderful, beautiful story to share. We are the saved. So we need to act like it. 

Oh dearest christian. Please understand this. 
God rescued you not because you deserved it. But because you didn't. God's not a respecter of persons. 



Wednesday, September 12, 2012

::Of Lately::

Hey my peeps. What's up? Well, in Victoria world, nothing that much. I've been busy with school. 9th grade isn't as hard as I'd thought, at least not yet. I've been hanging with friends, loving on my littlest brother (so cute), and taking lots of pictures. I need a break.
And the good news in that I'm going to get one. In about a week. 1 week. 1 week more till camp!
Yes, I said camp. Let me explain.
Every year my church spends 4 days at a state park. A beautiful park with lots of trails, a waterfall, volleyball and basketball courts. We stay in huge cabins. Boys in one. Girls in the other.
And we have a Mess Hall (dinning type room) where we all eat together, best part.

I love camp, so much. My besties and I push bunks together so we have our own little area. We sing around the campfire. Play games till 2:00 a.m.
And my BFF Mylee's birthday is on the Sat. we're there! :)

So do you guys like the random pictures?



Friday, September 7, 2012

::the cracks in the road::

"The cracks in the road aren't who we are, no, they just show where we've been. The bumps and the bruises aren't our reflection, no, their just the lessons we've learned. And the cracks in the road are sings of hope."


I closed my other blog (The Songwriter) down. Sad right. But honestly I didn't post much and I was still worried about my songs being in risk. So I closed it. I decided that since this is my personal blog, if I have a song I can put it on here. Less confusion.

These photos are about a month old. Yeah, I took them the night before my trip.

And I loved them but have just now gotten around to showing them. Hahah. A bit slow am I?

Anyways, my little lyrics up there mean a lot. God shows me all the time that I'm not my failures, not my shames, not my sins, not my scars. I'm His. And the rest of me just follows. My bestie taught me that one.