Saturday, March 31, 2012

Hot Cocoa And Noodles

 First off- HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my darling Jordan!
Last night I went over to her house for a sleepover with some other friends. It was awesome. Ice cream, Quelf, laughing, watched Jane Eyre, and Jo opened her presents. :)
Then this morning we played another game, had hot cocoa, and left over pizza and chicken & noodles. They were just what I needed (the noodles).
I love you Jordan! <3

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Music Moves Me

God's love and mercy play through my life like a song. A beautiful melody.
Sometimes it's so soft I can't hear it very well. Other times it screams and I'm wide awake.
It's high and almost bothersome some days, or really low and I think I can't reach it.
But here's the thing- God's never out of reach. And we're never to far gone for Him to rescue us. :)

This morning the song was just perfect, all day in fact. I had been down and a mess but today He really redeemed me. <3
I'm so in love right now with my King.
I've been reading through the Bible (I'm behind I think) and this morning it was Exodus 33 and 34. Beautiful words this morning.

Exodus 33:14 
And He said, My presence shall go with thee and I will thee rest.

Exodus 33:11 
And the Lord spake unto Moses, as a friend speaketh to his friend.  

Exodus 34:6-7  
6. And the LORD passed by before him, and proclaimed, The LORD, The LORD God, merciful and gracious, longsuffering, and abundant in goodness and truth,
7. Keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, and that will by no means clear the guilty; visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children, and upon the children's children, unto the third and to the fourth generation.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

You Had Me At Hello......

I figured it was time for you all to meet my darling BFF Leah.
She's like a breath of fresh air. Boldly honest. Let me explain it to you in simple terms.

God had so much love and sweetness that He going insane. :)
So He shot it into Leah Danielle. Made from nothing but blue eyes and a beautiful smile.
God knew before time began that I'd need Leah. She's part of me and without her I'm half of who I am. But it's Leah who always encourages me to stand up and be myself.
Leah's the strong half and I'm the messed-up part.

But as much as I love my BFF and ALL my friends, I have to remember to not let them become my god. Because nothing can replace God. Believe me, I've tried. It doesn't work.

Leah knows me, and I know Leah. And I like to think that Adrienne (my other BFF) and I are the only ones who can handle her. I know that not true though..........

But there's a peace knowing that when I'm a need a friend, God's always there, and Leah's there to listen to me. To help me.

I thank God for Leah everyday. :)
Enjoy the random pics. :)

Me and Leah

Friday, March 23, 2012

Feels Like I've Been Here Forever........

Seth and Timmy. Seth is my two year old brother, he'll be three soon. Everyday he does something completely cute and silly that makes me think  one day he'll be all grown up, we'll all be. One day I won't be Seth's babysitter, tummy-tickler, kiss-stealer, the one who sticks my tongue out at him. So many things I won't be anymore. No more silly voices. No more afternoons watching silly movies with him.
This new year, or old maybe, God's been giving me so many special moments with my family. Moments where it's like time freezes and it's like God's saying "don't forget to cherish life". Then fear will creep up behind me. Fears like- "maybe God's giving me these moments because I may not have many left. Or something horrible is going to happen to someone."
It seems lately I've been having a lot of fears. Fear of death (which is stupid 'cause I'm a Christian and going to Heaven), fear of life, fear of pain, fear of love. I guess one good thing that came out of this trial is that I've written songs about my fears and God' work in my life, which is good.
It's just that it feels like I've been here forever. But I know that this is going to make me stronger, braver, happier, more free.
Today I was doing some yard work, all dusty and hot (the temperature kind), when I saw two deer run across my neighbor's lawn. And the first thing I thought is how much I wanted to run like they did. Be carefree and have no chains on me. Then I saw birds flying high and beautifully. And I wished I could fly. Wish I could touch the blue, so blue sky and have the wind under me.
But I'm stuck down here for now. And I'm okay. Life's tough, but what would I be without a little trouble or without God's grace. And the answer is NOTHING.
Timmy, goof-ball

Timmy again

Timmy eyes


Oh my gosh, my favorite one of the day....

Sethie's blond hair

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Deep In The Meadow..........

So everyone who's read The Hunger Games Series should know what I'm talking about in this post. I love THG soo much. But I like telling stories so listen to this one.
My BFF's cousin read THG for a school project and loved it. So she told my BFF's sisters and then they read it. Then of course my BFF read it. I by now had heard about it and wanted to read it. So I did. Duh.
But there's something I learned from reading THG. And that's that it's not for everyone. I even had my doubts about reading it. I do love it now. But there's some stuff in it that everyone may not agree with.
One of my favorite parts of THG is Rue. I love Rue. She's adorable and kinda is like Katniss little sister for a bit. So I had my little sister do a Rue Photo Shoot with me.
Now my sister looks nothing like Rue but it's the thought that counts.
And for a heads up I'm taking a picture till FRIDAY of a Hunger Games Themed thing.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

The Beautiful Cornfield Across My Street

Just a little something for everyone. I hope these pictures remind everyone of God's beauty and love. Tuesday I walked into my kitchen and was taken away. For outside my window was the most gorgeous sight in the world. Fog with a sunrise. Light and cloudy. I was blown out of my boots. Which for the record I wasn't wearing boots. God's hand at work was shown to me. So I captured it all. :)

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Dearest Heart: Should I Follow You?

So we've all always been told to follow your heart, your dreams. Now I'm not saying that this stuff is a bunch of crude but just hear me out. I've noticed when I follow my heart, I end up mess'n up.
Let me tell you a story. Yesterday someone emailed me and said some things. Now they were just joking and not meaning to be mean. I had already been having a terrible day. Woke up dead sick, at 11:30, got a horrid migraine. Went back to bed till 2:00 something in the afternoon. My contacts weren't in, I was in pj's all day. Felt like life would be better if I wasn't breathing.
Then when my head felt better and I finally got out of bed, I checked my emails. And there is was, this silly, trying to be funny email. And it just totally ticked me off! The first thought that flew into my mind was fine, now they can have it right back! 
And what do you think I did. I went and ran my mouth! I said some pretty nasty things. And of course I didn't think about what I had wrote till after I had hit the send button. But it was too late. But the funny thing is I usually don't do things like that. Well, sometimes but I usually hold my tongue. I had a really out of person at that moment. But I said what I said, and it can't be undone.  
I ended up saying sorry to that person, I felt terrible, and they did too. I take all the blame, because it was me that over-reacted.
I guess my point is that when I send that terrible email I was following what my heart wanted. I was following my flesh but also my heart. My heart wanted that person to get what I thought they needed. When I forgot that my heart belongs to Jesus. But even in that, I still can try to take over. And yesterday God let me a little, I believe He wanted to teach me that I need to follow Him but me.
So ask yourselves, are you following your heart or God?
If God owns your heart, and then if you listen to Him (yeah, it may take pray and time), then you are following your heart. Or the Maker of your heart.
My best friend modeled for me today at Church. Enjoy! :)

Friday, March 9, 2012

Day Two and Three Of Brown County

Sorry, not much to say.
But me and my BFF started a blog together. Sorry, but it's still in "designer" stage right now. But it will be good. I promise.

Here are my pictures from my trip to Brown County State Park, Days Two and Three. Enjoy!

 Day Two Pictures.

Day Three Pics

Well that's the end of my trip's pictures, I got some great memories. But it's always good to be home.
As Megamind would say,
          "There's no place like evil lair!"